I am not here because I have an agenda. I have an agenda because I have to have one to keep my head above water. This agenda also comes with the support of a wonderful community, which is the only thing that can protect me from the vitriol and cruelty that exists in the tech sphere. These things are thrown at me because of my gender, the opinions I hold, and the people I socialize with, not because I’m a bad person or a bad engineer. Just because someone doesn’t like me, the things I say, and the things my friends say.
Earlier today when my GitHub profile was used to lend credibility to a repo mocking feminism, rape victims/survivors, and women in general, I wasn’t mad. My first reaction was concern for the code that I have access to on GitHub. Was my account compromised? Or worse, was GitHub? Code that isn’t mine could be at risk. Code that lots of other people have put many hours into. Code that does good things.
And then, when I figured out it wasn’t a security breach, because I’m human, I got mad. GitHub is a source of my abilities as an engineer and a record of my contributions to software development. It is my career. It is also my pride and joy. My proudest achievement in life was becoming an engineer.
But I’m ok. No one threatened me. No one hurt me. They rattled me. I’d be a fool if I tried to lie and say they didn’t shake me a little. But I also felt lucky, loved, and supported by more people than the number involved with the filth on GitHub.
I am also still really happy to be here.
I also still want to change the tech world, but not in the way you might think. I was to spread infectious enthusiasm for software development. I want people to love their code as much as I love mine. I want people to have the same zest for programming that I do. I want people to be happy with what they are doing.